I'm moving to livejournal. I need the locked posts now more than ever. Look out, I might add you people on a new account (the icy_paysi one is going to be deleted soon).

These past 2 months have been a waste. What have I learned? (That I'm back where I started) How many things on my checklist did I get done ( 10 out of... a hundred? ) Horoscopes are a nasty little habit. I wish I was a mind reader when I wanted to be though.

What was better than ice cream? Better than my favorite thing in the world?

Gahd. But I'll always papocat. Curses. Should I laugh my ass off to the high heavens or lock myself in a room with black walls? Maybe I'll do both.

3:52 PM;

I woke up this morning to a brighter shade than yesterday / It's taken me this long to realize / These past few days were more than just the rain / Thoughts of you were pulling me down somehow // ... needs something else here...
So now I've got my head taking over for a while / It's telling me I need to backtrack now / I'll be needing my heart back now / I'm giving up my vices and I'm starting with you / There's a whole lot of damage control left for me to do // ... needs something else here...
This is me / Refusing to be just another nameless tragedy /

Randomness: Haha, this is so at odds with where I'm at right now. / Mantao said you might have your own reasons and I respect that. / Next Wednesday: Math 54 midterms, 2-4pm. ES1 exam, 5-8PM!! AAAACK. /

Current LSS:
Rachael Yamagata - Worn Me Down, Meet Me By The Water (dreamy teary disconnected).
Arvo Part - Cantus in Memory of Benjamin Britten (instrumental piece).
Bif Naked - I Love Myself Today (snarling guitars, yay! dancing-in-front-of-the-mirror-fun music).
Squarepusher - My Red Hot Car (electronica buff beats, wooo).
Oldies: David Bowie - Golden Years, Janis Joplin - Piece Of My Heart

9:45 AM;

Never said it was going to be easy / If I don't know where I'm going well then I'm not the only one / Make me laugh, say you know what you want / And yes I'll always be just a little disconnected from ordinary and too afraid to show it / But you know I'll take the mess we've found ourselves in / Either head or heart will take us through but we'll make it / This story starts or ends here and now.

Too much pink in my layout. Ugh.

9:51 PM;

All those little people aren't ready for pretend / I'll soak up your sun and return it to you hotter than the fire you say you see in me / It doesn't have to do anything. Am I right, it doesn't have to mean anything at all / Stuck on Murakami again, aaaack. Disoriented and dreamy. / Nine Inch Nails and heavy bass to wake up to / Never going vegan, no amount of tofu and spice can convince me otherwise. But lunch was yummy anyway / Dilana, Lukas, Stooooorm! / Lisa I'm never letting you borrow my slippers ever agaaaaaain / The US crime rate went down in the late nineties. Not because of anti-violence policies. Not because of sermons, speeches and NGOs or even goodwill towards men and women. But because abortion was legalized. According to Steven Levitt anyway. O_0 Chaos theory in practice, yeah / It's been fun for the past few weeks, thank you :) / Still singing...

9:06 PM;

Currently reading Prozac Nation. Where were you three years ago when I needed yoooou? Now I take a look around and shudder. Who is this bubble head staring back at me, haha.

And someone should seriously talk to my mother about time management. Tsktsk.

Randomness: Lady In the Water, yay for fairytales :) /AM there's a Japanese sort-of version of Trainspotting daw and it's called "Snakes and Earrings". If I remember right. / Buti nalang na-resched yun 72 exam. Pero shoot, may Math54 rin pala on that day. AAAAACCCK! / We're just not on the same page then, darlin'. / Cinemalaya screenings next month / "Or we could we stay right here. Until the end of time. 'Til the earth stops turning" /

12:24 PM;

So we find ourselves back here, on the edge. Jump or turn back - fight or flight, take too much time to think, the moment passes you by and BAM! everything changes anyway. But for one little slip of a second you actually get to set things the way you want them to be. The way you think you want them to be. Therein lies the crux, damnit.

And then I hear Mimi over the stereo and she's singing: "Life's too short babe, time is flyin'!" But how do you live with a decision that screws up everything a million times over?

HOW THE HELL SHOULD I KNOW? I don't know. Who knows?

Okaaaay brain, stop it. Back to NR mode.

Movie tomorrow, yaaaay :) And HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIGGY!

8:00 PM;

Someone else thinks it's their job to tell your side of the story (no matter how inaccurate *their* version of your side is)?! Aaaagh. That's IT. I don't listen to gossip anymore.

But nothing can bring me down today. Absolutely nothing! Haha :) Icy. Puddle. Gone.

"Pirates" is now a franchise. Bummer.

8:56 PM;